Week 2

 

  After seeing this film, I felt depressed and suffocated from head to toe. The dim and cramped toilets, the curly hair falling on the floor, and the boy's silent struggle. These images constitute the pain of a family and also show us the tragedy of a society and an era.

  The scene that impressed me the most in this movie was the dialogue between the boy and his mother. As a teenager, it is the age when children explore love, pursue beauty, individuality and independence. The boy in the movie is not valued by his mother. He wants to become a straight-haired singer. Trying to straighten his curly hair, there was light in his eyes at that time, perhaps because of his love for his own image, or perhaps his longing and yearning for the future. But even a simple wish to straighten the hair broke in the cruel reality. Whenever the boy straightened his hair, his mother would rush into the bathroom frantically to take the boy away, criticizing and scolding him. There is only one reason for the mother to do this: she thinks her son is a gay. From the mother’s point of view, straightening her hair, sitting on the toilet, peeing on the toilet, singing and dancing, and always go to find the boy who is in the store, these "unusual" behaviors are all "evidence" that her son is homosexual, and she wants Change and reverse all of this. She went to consult a doctor, forced her son to cut his hair, threw away that boy's clothes in the store, and even had sex with a her boss in front of her son, just to change his son's gay identity. And the boy gradually accepted the reality from the struggle to the end. In fact, in my opinion, boys are not necessarily gay. He no longer likes to be thin because he heard others say that he would be beautiful if he dressed up as a girl; he refused to wear that clothes because he thought that his grandmother made him a singer dress with a skirt; when he was questioned, he would immediately say, “I am a man.” It can be seen that Junior has a very strong sense of male gender. 

  Whether the boy is gay or not, the movie does not give an absolute answer, but we can easily think of the pressure and pain he will endure if he is really gay. He needs to dave the public opinion of society alone, and when he returns home, not only can he not get the understanding and affirmation of his family, but the almost perverted coercion of his mother will be the last straw that overwhelms him, making it hard for him to breathe.

  In the last scene of the movie, the boy shaved his hair. He said to his mother, "I don't love you anymore", and his mother said, "Me neither." At that moment, I felt as if i was being held hostage by a sense of powerlessness. The boy finally compromised in the struggle with his mother, and the scene that his empty eyes and the hair falling on the ground showed the boy's failure in the contest, and also showed the compromise and despair in the struggle with prejudice and society for countless homosexuals who were not accepted by the family.